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KAYA:HOME

 

August 31st - October 12th

KAYA (Debo Eilers & Kerstin Brätsch) 


Text by Ciccio & Marie Karlberg: 


girl on the beach talking on the phone:

actually I look back 

and I think wait

you knew so much 

I didn’t even really fully appreciate it 

honestly back then I wasn’t even thinking

I was just like

oh 

but like

he’s not

like continuing the conversation

you know what I mean 

I felt like kind of 

used

but I realize

your so…

you actually know music incredibly well!

boy on the other end of the phone: inaudible

girl:

no i think you do

no no no you definitely do

like I swear to god I 

have not met…

I’ve gone to record stores with plenty of people

and none of them have like

genuinely been interested in like knowing so many artists.

I don’t know

thats what I think

but what’s my point

but what’s my point aussie

I don’t know 

but

ok

listen 

I want to be your friend

whether you like it or not

because I decided I’m going to be your friend

because I see so much potential 

so much potential

and you know don’t be scared of like older kids

like I know you were like that in high school 

and was like oh my god like david jr. just did…

I’m like fuck that. 

I’ve talked to adults

you’ve talked to adults all your life 

like you know…

boy: inaudible

girl:

but why are you laughing its true

boy: inaudible 

girl:

no it’s nothing you did

its what I… I guess

listen aussie listen

I guess I just like changed

I thought like literally

I was kind of in a bad place

like

I took a year off 

because

honestly 

I was not in the best place

um

mentally 

and I could not stop

smoking, I was in a really bad place

and like um don’t tell this to other people I 

I just like

I literally like

stoped 

I don’t even know how to describe it 

I was like

and then I realized

like I became really really depressed

um

and then 

what else happened

and then I took the year off 

and then I went 

you see 

everything had changed

but then like 

I kinda just 

when i was younger 

like I loved Jane Austen

you know

I genuinely did

I loved her

because 

she was so 

she was so like

just herself

you know

she was 

hmm

I don’t know what i’m trying to say

but i guess i just thought about you because 

I really thought

I mean I think you’re a really cool person

and I respect…

boy: in audible

girl: 

wait you can’t hear me…

boy: inaudible

girl:

no what I’m trying to say is

I think you are really cool

and I saw that with you 

and I saw that with the T’s

and I know 

like so many 

like high school kids

all these like random kids and they’re like ‘oh yeah bro there’s that guy’

like they don’t have much substance

like they just like

I don’t even know

or like at least not like where they show it

but you

you do.

all the kids in my high school

like i can tell you 

i look back and like

all of them 

but this might be different from you

but in my high school

it was like all 

I’m gonna be honest 

it was a bunch of 

like really rich spoiled brats

so like obviously thats like different

but i was like 

oh god

I have to fit in

I came from europe

and like I wasn’t used to it

and then I like

started buying

and like trying to fit in 

trying to

but then I’m like why am I trying to fit in

like

I was so insecure

all the time

and it didn’t really do any good

like 

and i think

honestly 

I think you are insecure

but i think thats fine

I’m insecure too

but I 

everyone is

but I think that like

um

I’m just gonna say it 

I’m gonna be your friend

and i’m gonna actually try to help you

like honestly tell you what I think

so i’m gonna say one thing 

ok if your trying

this is from a girls perspective

ok

this is from a girl who’s had experience

I’ve had a boyfriend for a few years 

like I know

if you want a girl like whose had a boyfriend or not

that doesn’t matter

if you want a girl

you have to go after her

you don’t have to go after her but you have to like make her feel special

you know?

you have to

like i remember 

I had to ask you

I was like oh

do you like that girl on instagram? 

I know that was really superficial 

like its just like what she looks like

but you met her in person 

and you liked her 

she was nice

I remember saying like well 

like

like

like what are you gonna do

and I was just thinking

at the time I didn’t really think that much about it

but I looked back 

and I remember you were like

like yeah if I run into her maybe in like six months 

then no 

why do you wait

right?

boy: inaudible

girl:

yeah and thats ok 

thats fine

but I’m just saying 

thats perfectly fine

but I’m just saying 

like

thats the thing 

like

I’m the one who

whose saying go

like everyone doesn’t know what to expect

and thats like the beauty of it

you don’t have to be worried about

like

like oh are kids gonna like me cause

the right ones are gonna like you

people of substance like that see 

like that your really cool

even 

your so much cooler than like most kids in my high school 

they all 

all they talked about was like

like 

no this was fine but

all they were talking about 

is like oh who was hot

oh like was like that was it

and like oh 

what does he do that was none of it 

none of it

and like

I don’t know

I mean 

like I guess 

even if you wanted to casually hook up with someone 

I still think like

you should

um 

you should make them feel special 

and you shouldn’t like say 

oh yeah I just wanna hook up with like someone casually 

like when you said that 

that was like such a turn off

and I didn’t want a relationship

at all

I like would’ve been fine with like

honestly like 

I dunno if you even meant me 

but that doesn’t really matter (laughter)

that doesn’t really matter 

the point is 

the point is aussie

um

the point is 

I will try to help you

um

cause I do think you have 

yea

I think you’re

a really 

cool person

and

just know that you already have one friend

who genuinely 

thinks that your interesting

and like

honestly before 

like

I was like trying to be a different person 

I was wearing like topless shirts no i wasn’t topless i mean braless shirts

and I was like trying to be cool

like wearing ripped jeans 

and like thats why like 

I was just trying to be someone I wasn’t 

because I was like confused 

like I was like I didn’t know

um

and thats fine too

but like 

just own it

you know

so when I like

when a girl asks you like

‘oh so like what are you interested in’

you say like what your interested in

don’t just like ‘oh I don’t know’

like 

I’m not really 

honestly just like

as if you were talking to any of your friends

and if they 

and if they understand 

like they’re the ones who you should be looking out for

cause like 

it doesn’t matter if you like want a relationship or 

like 

nothing 

like thats not the point 

like if you want to like get a girl

then you 

have to be confident

you don’t have to go after her 

but you just have to know what you want 

and you have to like make her feel 

special

because like all these girls 

all my friends 

they all like

honestly 

they all like

I’ll give you an example from like a girls perspective

in my experience

they all just talk about guys that are hot

‘oh he’s hot, oh he’s hot, oh he’s hot’

but like 

and I was the same way

I was like yeah

aussie’s really attractive

and like 

I did actually like 

that you were 

like a musician and everything 

but like yes 

I like think you are very attractive

and I don’t think 

um

yeah 

I don’t think your confident enough

and I think thats something you should work on

I know you’re shaking your head

I know it’s hard.

boy: inaudible 

girl:

no its fine

its totally fine

like 

honestly aussie its totally fine

its a lot to take in 

but 

just know that I have good intentions for you

because I know what it’s like

yeah but 

how are you?

(laughs)

no but how are you though?

how is everything? no tell me.

I’m curious

how’ve you been?

boy: inaudible

girl:

you did?

boy: inaudible

girl:

no I don’t care

I have time

i’m at the beach 

you know honestly i don’t even like to go swimming 

I like to just sit 

and like think

so (laughs)

see I told you I was weird

no I’m gonna help you

(laughs) ok.

boy: inaudible

girl:

show me

boy: inaudible

girl:

ok I’m gonna be honest 

who is he again ?

I forget 

I forget

boy: inaudible

girl:

yeah but what?

Is he a rapper? I honestly don’t know

I don’t really follow…

boy: inaudible

girl:

let me write that down 

I’m actually interested 

um 

whats the name?

boy: inaudible

girl:

cause honestly aussie I don’t really listen to new stuff 

so

cause its kind of interesting to learn 

but um ok keep going.

boy: inaudible

girl:

so what time period is that?

Is that like greenday vibes 

like red hot chilli peppers

like what vibes is it?

boy: inaudible

girl:

oh guess what

you know Parcels 

you know Parcels

oh I showed it to you 

remember?

boy: inaudible

girl:

why did you say it was folky? 

it’s so beatles vibes.

boy: inaudible

girl:

Is it?

you really think thats all that is

but its so much more than that

think about how they are so like vintage looking 

they are so like their own person

The Parcels

it’s like these 5 kids that like 

kinda like the beatles 

they are like kinda foreign 

they are like interesting 

they have their own style

like don’t you feel like all these rappers 

like kinda merge into one?

don’t you feel like 

like who sticks out to you?

boy: inaudible

girl:

ok

but aussie ok

I don’t care about the tech

I don’t care about the 

I

I ask you

what what 

ok like

whats your favorite song

do you have one?

boy: inaudible 

girl:

ok 

what song do you like really relate to?

goy: inaudible

girl:

doesn’t matter

I wanna hear it

I wanna know 

I want you to tell me so I can write it down

something that is actually really like moving to you.

goy: inaudible

girl:

doesn’t matter

doesn’t matter

whats the song.

boy: inaudible

girl:

see! (snaps)

see this is it 

when a girl asks you a question it’s good to have an answer

right

it’s good to have one answer

like what’s your favorite song, but like a genuine answer like why right

if you don’t 

I guess you can say I don’t know

thats also fine.

goy: inaudible

girl:

ok

ok “Something About Us”

ok 

ok that one I’ll listen to that like later

ok honestly 

oh god I’m at like 2 percent 

umm ok

and the other one is “Itsy ghost” is that a song or like an album?

Boy: inaudible

Girl:

I’ll listen to it

I’ll listen to it

ok

just remember 

just remember

you have one genuine friend.

And you can honestly act like whatever you want I honestly don’t really care that much

but I will

I will be your real friend 

because thats what I decided

and with any one else, honestly 

um…who I think has potential.

ok my phone is gonna run out 

but I have to go 

bye now

bye!


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